22 Mar 7.07pm Real bad weather
I've been hit by a tormenting headache. Every weekend is the same but this time is one of the worst.
How can we not go out and enjoy ourselves a bit when weekends are all we are looking forward to? I always thought, if we can't do this today or tomorrow, it will be 1 full week later. See?
But these days, the unpredictable weather is driving me crazy. Anytime you ransack my bag, you will see my purple ultra-light umbrella. And recently i added in my shawl into my must-have list. I admit i'm one of those who couldn't stand the cold. So... the weather happily enjoys its mood swing, and one moment it throws the fiery sun above our heads, and the next, the rain pours like nobody's business, drenching my shoes (one of the things i hated most).
Yesterday it must be upset. It cried like mad and the visibility dropped tremendously. Yet today, i won't be suprised if my hair was on fire.
The worst is to take transport under such high temperature. So when i thought i'm going to faint under the heat (HOT), the bus was here! With a thankful mind, i hopped onto the bus. I'm sure the aircon was maintained regularly because it was real cold (COLD). Then i realised i got to switch to another bus. So i dropped out to the hot air again (HOT). Just before i melted, the bus came and i was kept into freezer once more (COLD).
Having such repeated cycle, my brain finally quit working and declared sick.
With Monday just 5 hours away, i was comtemplating if i should take MC. And even just thinking of that, i was smiling from ear to ear. ~
3月13日 14：35
我正痛苦着。我正后悔着。
有些时候，真的是连一个差错都不能犯。因为有些错误的代价不是我所能承担的。不要以为事情过了，就会没事。事情不会过，还会不断地折腾你。
我以为经过了教训，我学乖了。这么多年来，我以为我只犯了一个比较严重的错。学业上的错。
这个给我动不动就拿来谇谇念的就是发生在我高中毕业，前途一片茫然的时候。上不了大学也就算了，以我当时的烂成绩却还是能报进任何理工学院。偏偏我选择了报读私人学校。结果后头的职业路就一片坎坷。将近10年了，我仍然悔不当初。
可惜我没有吸取教训。
2年前，又犯了一个让我一星期5天都受苦的错。因为眼睛贴到邮票，让我2年来痛不欲生。而这一个错，也算是我自己找来的，所以我更不能原谅自己。
一切已晚。
我正痛苦着。我正后悔着。
~
3月11日 10.25
我想我应该不年轻了。
从前，我似乎比较可以接受一些不合理的事情。主要原因想必是因为年轻，没有经历过太多事。
经验少了，自然不敢多说话。说话的声音小了，头也低了，对待不愉快的事，大多选择忍气吞声。
这阵子，auntie本色出来了。我越来越不可以接受荒谬，不合理，不礼貌的人和事。人人平等，应该互相尊重。没有人有特别的权利无理对待其他人。我再也不可能忍气吞声了。我越是退后，可恶的人越是逼近。
只想追求简单快乐的我，丝毫连一毫克的不快乐都不想要。
年纪一天天地大，我只想增添我的快乐。以前，即使是让我不开心的事，我也会勉强去做。为了只是不想别人觉得我不赏脸，或是我不合群。
现在，这都不重要了。我只凭良心问自己：有没有做错事？有没有对不起别人。
如果没有，我会坚持寻找自己的快乐，哪怕只是比一毫克还来得多一点而已。
~
3 Mar 2009 17.00
I always love the sea. To me, it has great power beneath. It can be calm, but it can roar. When i was young, i dreamt of being a crew onboard a cruise. So that everyday i can wake up floating. Obviously this dream hasn't come true, but nothing can stop me from Sailing OFF!
~ 25 Feb ~
8.30pm: we joined the curvy queue at Harbourfront Cruise Centre that didn't seem to end.
9.30pm: finally we stepped onto the floating hotel.
9.45pm: we couldn't wait any longer and we quickly settled down at the Chinese Restaurant The Pavilion for a nice late dinner.
11.59pm: we were waiting for the 'pooooooo' horn to be sound as we thought this will be the common practice for any departing ship. But apparently we were quite outdated as the ship departed steadily without our notice.
12.15am: now . . . there was always a daily programme where timing for every meal was clearly stated. Apparently, there wasn't any supper available so we spent S$5.00 on this jug of milo. Was it the price or something, but this was the best milo i every tasted. milo . . milo . . . milo . . .
~ 26 Feb ~
6.30am: There was no time to lose on the bed, and we forced ourselves to wake up the same time just like we are working.
7.00am: The sun was coming out but i guess it was still early hence Deck 12 was empty.
7.10am: Hubby tried to be funny again.
7.15am: We made our way to Deck 12 for breakfast, as we happily planned our day.
10.00am: We hang out a bit at the library.
11.00am: And then there were some shops that sell really expensive soverniers.
12.30pm: Basically, it was just eat, walk, and sleep. And soon we made our way to Bella Vista for lunch.
3pm: We thought there wasn't many chance where we could wear the life jackets so we tried it on.
Here i was demonstrating the correct position we should have when we are about to jump off into the sea.
And i decided to make it more realistic by showing the scene when something happened.
5pm: And then we sweated out a bit with table tennis.
11pm: Supper will be coming soon at 12am but we missed the milo so much so we didn't even mind spending another S$5.00 for a whole jug of milo. . .
Blue lagoon is in fact one of my favourite cafes onboard. Perhaps it is not inclusive as one of the 'non-paying' cafes, hence it was often quite empty. I love peace.
~ 27 Feb ~
1.30pm: The fun was short but very fulfilling. We spent most of the last morning on the top deck looking out to the horizon.
Indeed life is more about the quality than the length. Though only 1.5 days and 2 nights to be exact, we were glad to be back to our normal life while this little trip stayed as a sweet memory in some part of our brain.
~
