2009年10月31日（星期六）
Retail therapy used to help… but now… it doesn’t seem to alleviate my melancholic mood…
Wanted to buy a dress for my pri sch bestie’s wedding dinner, as the black dress I bought last year… could no longer fit in…
Had wanted to go to Bugis coz I should be able to find what I want there. However, it started pouring cats and dogs before I reached, so I remained on the bus, for it to turn to Suntec instead, as the chances of getting drenched is lower. No idea of what I wana get, juz wana get something that I can wear on normal days. So as I walked and browse, browse and walked, I finally came across this shop called MISO. Had never noticed this shop as this is one part of Suntec that I really very seldom walked to, unless I had a “mission” like today. Can’t remember when was the last time I bought clothes at Suntec, possibly a few years back? Come to think of it, my wardrobe is now mainly filled with clothes I bought from HK and frankly, they are really not that much. Just as I was thinking of giving my wardrobe a face-lift, I saw Miso. Thinking that it might have clothes that’s suitable for a wedding , I walked in and started to see if I can find anything.
Oh yes, a normal me might not have found the clothes attractive as they are really not my style of clothes. However, guess I was just thinking bout my wardrobe… The shop was empty except for the sales ladies and me. I saw a few dresses that’s pretty nice… I picked n picked, the sales gal take n take, n she gave me some recommendations… In the end, I walked to the changing room with about 10 sets of clothes? My goodness… too bad the changing room has no mirror internally, have to view outside. Else I could have taken some pics again…
Somehow the clothes here are quite right, or maybe my mood is wrong, so the clothes appear to be right. It was a long time since I had wanted to buy more than 1 piece from a shop in Singapore, MU was the last I guessed.
But right now, there were SIX pieces waiting for me to buy, oh dear… my pocket is going to get burned… Thinking of my HK trip next week, I told myself to only get what I need. But then again, I really do wana get some new outfits, so I started eliminating. After much struggle, I was finally down to 4… Then I went to re-try 3 of them, the sales girls were telling me how it’s a waste not to buy when the clothes fit me. I was feeling the same too… However, I told myself I could get more in HK… so 2 will be enough for me. One to wear to the wedding dinner and another for normal casual wear. That is when the girl offered to give me member discount if I get 4… arrrhh... this is definitely my 死穴…. N she’s offering me the membership… wahhh… so after much consideration… here comes my 4 new dresses!
Maybe retail therapy isn’t working too well for me… so I walked over to Marina Square to see if I can get any other thing… shoes? Bags? Nope… don’t wana get shoes from the usual stores that only showcase those size 5 & 6 shoes… n bags? I think I wana get them in HK… I checked out the camera I wana buy… sooo epensive… so after wandering for some time, as I made my way home. I came across Chomel… yess! I think buying earrings is what is lacking!
Taaa~~daaa~~~
I shall now go to sleep or wake up like a panda who didn’t sleep….
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2009年10月30日（星期五）
It’s 1:03am now. Next week this day this time, my feet should be in the land of Macau…
I am sooooo looking forward to it.
Was catching up on some news when I saw the following article on Yahoo! News…
There seems to be more n more of such “karoshi” cases. It leads me to think and re-think, I think I really made the right choice in resigning from my job. Of course mine is not such an extreme case that is comparable to the below, however, there’s always a reason to why people want to quit from a job. I have no wish to work until I’m being “recalled” in such a manner.
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^ McDonald's worker dies of 'overwork': officials AFP - Wednesday, October 28
McDonald's worker dies of 'overwork': officials TOKYO (AFP) - – A store manager with hamburger chain McDonald's in Japan who died of a brain haemorrhage was a victim of "karoshi" or death by overwork, a regional labour office said Wednesday. The woman, employed at an outlet in Yokohama near Tokyo and reportedly aged 41, had done more than 80 hours of overtime per month before she collapsed in October 2007 during a training programme at a different store. She died in hospital three days later, said an official at the Kanagawa Labour Bureau, which oversees the Yokohama region. "We determined her work caused the illness," said the official in charge of work-related compensation, a decision that makes her dependent family members eligible to receive a public pension. "She had early symptoms such as headaches some three weeks before she collapsed, and we presume she already had the illness at that point." McDonald's Co. (Japan) Ltd. declined to comment on the case, with a spokesman saying only that the company had not been contacted by authorities and had not confirmed the decision by itself. The woman had performed more than 80 hours of overtime a month on average for the six months before she suffered early symptoms, although she had a vacation shortly before she collapsed in October, the official said. Japan's welfare and labour ministry investigates whether deaths are caused by excessive work if the victim had performed monthly overtime of 80 hours or more for the preceding six months, or 100 hours for the previous one month. The number of deaths, usually through strokes or heart attacks, in Japan that are classified as "karoshi" has been hovering at around 150 annually in recent years, according to ministry data. McDonald's suffered a blow to its image when a Tokyo court last year ordered it to pay compensation of more than 70,000 dollars to an employee who had performed unpaid overtime for several years. The plaintiff, who had carried the job title of store manager, had earlier said he sometimes worked more than 100 hours of unpaid overtime in a month. Japan's labour laws do not oblige companies to pay overtime to workers in managerial posts. McDonald's argued their store chiefs have a say in management decisions, but the court rejected that argument. ^ |
我辞职之事在还没落实已经有“有心”人在散播了。定下不到一天，该知道的人都知道，不该知道的也知道，更有趣的是没有必要知道的人也晓得！庆幸部门里有个扩音器，省得我大费唇舌。但奇怪的是，多数人好像都自以为知道我要离开的理由。
“哎呀，不能应付这里的工作吗？”
“哦，是不是这里的工作太难做了？”
“为什么要走？不可以cope啊？”
我本来觉得没有必要向人解释那么多，认识我的人，对我有一定了解的人都应该知道我并非容易放弃的人。对我而言，没有应付不来的工作，只要肯用心，以正确的学习态度，铁棒也能磨成针的。所以，只要老板知道我真正要离开的原因，我没有必要在他人面前说那么多。人言可畏，万一传一传变成是我在搬弄是非，那可不是有损我的人格？可惜的是，我就连辞职也碰上一钉子麻烦。
原本想说，为了一个人辞掉我还没正式接收的工作，会不会有点傻？家人和好友几经分析，趁早解脱好比夜长梦多啊。既然明知道前面的路是怎样的路，为什么还要硬着头皮去接受？我也可以有自己的选择，可以有自己的目标，更加可以对工作有期望。我不再是新生，为了工作经验必须忍气吞声。但我也不是什么大咔，不能动不动就有那么多选择。我总是抱着“既来之，则安之”的人生态度，也对工作秉着钻研的精神。说不定就因为这样，人家觉得我什么都ok，我既然没有选择的余地，只有接受的命运咯。那也没错，只要不是暗箭伤我，我基本上也不会有太大的反对。
我试图探讨为什么我要离开这份工作。好多理由。。。可是偏偏。。。怎么偏偏“不能应付”没有名列前茅啊？
惠子“十项离职排行榜”出炉！
一，我不能和自私、心理不平衡、总是认为别人比她空闲，在背后说人是非的人合作。
二，我不能带着面具假装一切都好，明知道某人在打如意算盘，对象是我，我却还要若无其事。
三，突如其来的职责与事先跟我沟通的完全不一样。我还是最后一个才知道，就在开会宣布当下才知道自己中弹了。然后要在一个月内进行三人平行工作移交。所以。。。
四，不够时间让我证明自己的实力，剩下不到半年的时间，要接手她人工作、掌握工作流程没那么简单。因为。。。
五，担心学到错误的东西，却还不知道那是不对的。问的问题找不到答案，构不成完整的思维导图。东一个洞、西一个洞，没有顺序的学习模式不适合我。
六，几乎卖身给公司，成为廉价劳工，得不偿失（＄／时间）。由于人事上的变动，我知道接下来的日子就是加班和睡觉。曾体验失去下班后的自由与魄力，所以更加不要重蹈覆辙。
七，一个月内让我失去光彩、半年让我激增5公斤外加上洗不掉的黑色“下眼影”的工作。
八，这环境让我快要瞎掉、秃头、皮肤开始敏感。左上眼皮至今跳了三个星期。。。还在跳。。。
九，虽然这并不很成立，但我心有余悸――让我再次失去亲人的公司。
十，不能应付的来了。。。不能应付思想怪异的人。。。
我不能控制别人的想法，但我能在这自己的小天地，还给自己一个清白。
现在只剩下三个小时的睡眠。。。牺牲两个半钟还自己一个清白不算过分吧。。。
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2009年10月07日（星期三）
In the office at this time!!!! Going home.....wat a day....~~~~
２００９ 年 ９ 月 24 日
友人總能在我困擾時讓我悟出一些所以然:
“ 堅持是一種美德，但是死守空城很可能讓那死守的優秀將軍失去東山再起的機會。
暫時退出不是一種放棄也不是一種懦弱
暫時退出可能是為下次的戰役好好做準備
暫時退出，不是永遠的放下。”
後記:
自己的堅持會否成為絆腳石?
暫時退出.等同於放棄嗎?
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２００９ 年 ９ 月 １６ 日
無加工的留言
無加工的照片
今日的早餐
兩粒愛心紅雞蛋
加上在公司餐廳買的
一點都不經濟的經濟米粉
為自己慶祝了一個無趣的生日
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2009年09月09日（星期三）
Having only posted 1 blog entry in August, I felt I’m losing track of time…
Losing track of everything…
I have no wish to… But I can’t help it…
乘着今天是09年09月09日… 我希望把记忆定格…
把我所能够记得的,永远地烙印在我脑海里…
Haven’t been blogging about my life, I guess too much had happened over too short a time.
I really appreciate all the care n concern provided by my dear friends over this tough period… I felt it… thank you…
其实公司的两位实习生帮了我很大的忙,帮我暂时忘记忧伤… Hanging out with them makes me feel young again! 可惜啊… 他们的internship 结束了. Hahah…
And besides overcoming the tough days, I wanna thank friends who still remember my bdae and the well wishes received… it sorta mitigated my grief…
Going forward, I hope that I’ll have time n energy out of work to continue blogging. It’s not that difficult if I can do without pictures… n do without editing my photos.
我要找回自己,找回我的生活!
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2009年07月16日（星期四）
最近心情其实很忐忑，爸妈出国的同时，外婆因喘不过气，入院。前几晚住在加护病房，情况危急，我们担心不已。在几乎崩溃的边缘，还得想办法隐瞒妈妈，要不然，还要担心她才刚抵达波兰就要飞回来了。
两个星期来真的是在考验我的体力。一方面，家里就是我最大，另一方面，是我工作最忙的时候 – quarter closing 。还好两个妹妹长大了，非但不用让我担心，还能够减轻担子。家务事由她们帮忙。
原来，压力真的会让我有超凡的举动。因为，我开车上班了！为了省钱、省时，我在父母出国的几天后就开始开车上班。不说不知，我考到驾照后也只有在老爸出国的前一、两个星期才偶尔有他陪我“试车”。好不习惯开自动排档车，所以搞得“人心惶惶”，我这样算危险驾驶吗？所以他们出国前我还很肯定地跟妈妈说我不可能会开车上班，因为我还没练习停车，还有快速公路我也还没在有人陪同下体验。怎知。。。
只有第一天开车时有dear 的半路陪伴。不过也是我自己首次单独开车，到他家载他，然后由他接棒驾到公司。那也是唯一一天他在场，隔天他就到泰国度假，回来之后自行隔离，所以根本没有机会一起上班。我真的不知道我的胆子是哪里冒出来的？几乎天天都是开车上班，还上快速公路呢！早上繁忙时间自个儿在PIE“风驰电掣”地，现在回想起来，好像还蛮大胆的。
午餐时间，我便会开车到医院探望外婆，下班后我也还是往医院跑。探完病后载阿姨回家再打道回府。连日来的迟睡、早起让我后来也支持不住。在外婆渐渐的康复中，我心中的大石也慢慢放下。有一天却感觉自己心跳加速，心好像比平时更用力的在跳、头晕、想吐、轻微的泻肚子、发现皮肤莫名其妙地长东西、手臂上无缘无故有瘀青。平时我知道要是连夜不够睡，我的心跳会加速。可是这几个症状一起出现似乎响起了警钟，我便找医生去。医生说我的心跳得很快，比同年龄的人跳得更快，叫我多休息，说可能是压力太大。手上的东西是皮肤敏感（我在想八成是扫地、抹地时对灰尘的反应），开了一些药和两天病假给我，便打发我走了。
那已是上星期的事了，两天病假是星期三和四，星期五我还请了半天假，到机场接机。外婆星期六出院。
妈妈看到我是自己去载他们，吓了一跳，说我真敢！爸爸这回坐在我旁边，手没有”stand-by” hand brake 了。之前陪我练习时，右手一定是放在hand brake那里，好像随时都有可能“派上用场”。现在可悠闲了呢，前晚我载dear回家，他说要陪我，之后回家的途中，他说要留在后座，叫我小心就好了。作晚再载dear回家，我跟他拿车钥匙时，他没有意思要跟着去了，只是叫我开慢点。
嗯。。。我开得很快哦？？？
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^ 梁朝伟为《一代宗师》练武 意外受伤被踢骨折
正在为王家卫的新片《一代宗师》积极练武的梁朝伟13日意外受伤。
记者13日从香港有关方面获悉，当日，梁朝伟在与数位武术师傅练习咏春拳时，左手手臂骨被一位师傅踢骨折。
王家卫的香港泽东公司筹拍的以咏春拳创始人叶问为主题的影片《一代宗师》，由于已确定梁朝伟出演“一代宗师”叶问，同时林青霞也有望凭借该片復出，所以备受关注。
13日晚，泽东公司向记者証实了梁朝伟受伤的消息。据透露，为了更好地表现出咏春拳的形和力，梁朝伟每天都要和四五名武术师傅练习咏春拳。而13日在和师傅练功时，梁朝伟不知为何突然加力，打得比较凶，出手力道很勐；而梁朝伟的发力似乎惊到了师傅，于是师傅也暗自用力，紧急中师傅一个扫腿向梁朝伟踢去。梁朝伟用左手拆挡，结果只听一声惨叫。泽东公司透露，经过医生诊断，武术师傅这一脚，竟然让梁朝伟的左手手臂骨被踢骨折。
据悉，为了不影响《一代宗师》的筹拍，梁朝伟在休养期间，将不会停歇练习，会抓紧时间练腿功。
事后有记者问梁朝伟有没有第一时间打电话告诉刘嘉玲，梁朝伟表示：“我刚刚才看完医生，暂时未通知她呀！”据《天天新报》 ^
2009年06月２7日（星期六）
阿伟的47岁生日。
祝愿您永远的幸福、快乐。
2009年06月２４日（星期三）
上个星期真是忙到连喘气都没有时间。其实还蛮喜欢这样的忙碌，让我觉得时间过得快，可惜就是没有私人时间。因为平均在公司待上１３小时，扣掉１小午餐时间，还有１２小时。我享受在工作时的冲劲，却也不希望回到没天没夜的生活。
不晓得是不是精神紧绷了一星期，星期五一下班就觉得肚子不舒服。同事刚好要到克拉码头，我搭顺风车，再转东北线回家。一回到家，马上就泻肚子，还泻了几次。Deär 说我就是这样，每次太紧张就会拉肚子。不过，很多人也是这样的不是吗？
一直有个想法，想在下班后游泳，或是跑步？但我察觉，等到我到家时，楼下健身房的两台跑步机都有人在用。于是，“心有余而力不足”成了我的借口。
可是既然不想像以前那样，我就必须调整生活习性。回到工作岗位后才三个月，我增了３＋公斤。什么and 什么嘛。。。我太不甘心了！不行！所以我往前踩了一步 －－ 游泳！哇噻！我有一年多没有踏进那泳池了吧。终于“鼓起勇气。。。”，跳进水里！游了泳之后去三温暖。不知道是不是太久没有运动，今天松松胫骨，感觉还挺不错的。喜欢在水里的宁静，也喜欢泡按摩池时的泡泡声。到底我喜欢宁静？还是有声音？矛盾。。。
人生充满着许多的矛盾，矛盾到底来自于什么？
是因为没有目标？不知道自己要什么。
是因为过于随和、随便？这个可以、那样也行。
是因为没有自律？懒惰。。。
是因为太贪心？这个想要、那个也不想错过。
似乎种种因素都适合解释我的矛盾。。。
您，又有什么解释呢？
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